Struggle

I offer personal development/mindset wisdom on this blog.

But it’s not like I figured it all out.

Here are some recent/ongoing struggles:

– Part of me keeps feeling particularly annoyed by the smallest things, like my neighbors chatting on the porch, or seeing litter on the ground, or a small spill on the counter. It’s agitating to this part, and I’m struggling to let it go.

– Needs for (real life) connection, intimacy, and touch aren’t getting met daily. I’m doing well to get in phone calls/video calls consistently, but quarantine on my own is hard.

– My mental clarity/wellness is up and down. I feel great in the morning – productive, emboldened, and creative. Then I hit a wall midday. I workout/get sunshine and I’m back. Then, early evening I return to fogginess and feel a bit drained.

– I feel super healthy overall – but continue to work with an imbalanced sympathetic/parasympathetic nervous system. This impacts my daily life more than one might think.

– An inner critic remains vocal. “You’re not efficient enough.” “You weren’t authentic in that moment.” “You are putting things off.” “You ought to have made better progress by now.” “You’re slacking.” “Stop drinking coffee.” Etc.

In many ways, I’m super excited right now. I feel alive. I feel empowered. I’m writing and creating and chasing my dreams. I’m reading meaningful books on personal growth.

Sometimes, we compare our inner struggles to others’ highlight reels.

But I’m pretty sure we’re all struggling, in some ways.